Diary 16 / 25-years-old / NYC
The night before a trip to Rome and Israel, I break down and tell Giovanni I no longer want to be alive. After our phone call, I reach for a video camera and try speaking through the pain. Trigger Warning: there is raw footage from that evening at the end of this entry. By the time I finish speaking into the camera, I had relaxed; and by the time I sit down to write the diary entry, I had turned the corner.
I strive for honesty in this project, and I include things this visceral to show how we can all get stronger by sharing. That being said, you can watch the diary read and turn the video off before the older footage, and still get the full story.
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