Diary 19
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January 28th, 2012

Diary 19 / 30-years-old / New York City
Giovanni works in the film industry, and has to take what jobs are offered.  His jobs are becoming longer and more consuming… lately an entire year at at time.  For the past two years, I’ve had to fly to Budapest to spend any real time with him; and “real time” is now only one or two weeks every 4 months.  His working so much has allowed the lifestyle where I can be a freelancer, and we can still afford the long-distance travel. But it has also required me to leave whatever momentum I start to create in New York whenever it’s time to see each other. I have to be the flexible one. At the time of this entry, the Budapest job has finally ended and he’s planning to live in New York for two months. I’ve been looking forward to this for a long time, when I learn he may be be taking a job in Spain, instead.
I’ve started taking several classes to help keep a focus on my daily life, and one of those classes is Argentine tango. I find it not uncommon for students of the dance to be re-rembering what it’s like to hold someone close.

January 28, 2012
January 28, 2012

 

TBD BONUS: January 28, 2015

sketches after a breakup

January 28, 2015
January 28, 2015, sketches after a breakup.
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Diary 11
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January 20, 2005

Diary 11 / 23-years-old / New York City
It’s a little strange to think back to my first years in New York. Being a young-20s female in this city is a singular experience. Maybe it’s no different than any other city, but the Concrete Jungle had never felt more aptly named. There’s the feeling of providence–being young and vibrant, and nothing but potential (and in my case–pursuing acting and modeling–the dream that life would be Magical and Easy); and the reality of a certain powerlessness–not knowing the game, the players, or the community to which you may ultimately belong. I wouldn’t do it again, that’s for sure; but looking back, the things a young woman encounters in this period, and the ways in which she survives, could write tomes. I wouldn’t be surprised if the male experience is the same.

January 20, 2005
January 20, 2005, pg 1
January 20, 2005
January 20, 2005, pg2

I mean it, and so does my Trumped cat:
register to vote https://www.usa.gov/register-to-vote

trumped frederick
My cat, Frederick, Trumped.
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Diary 18
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January 14th, 2011

Diary 18 / 29-years-old / New York City
I’m in a long-distance relationship with an Italian man I met while making a movie.  Giovanni and I have spent the past five years going between Rome and NYC to visit one another.  The visits are usually several months apart, and this is a particularly rough time.  I reference Joyce, my therapist (who I more fondly referred to as my “theralady”), a really phenomenal documentary called “The Protagonist,” and an email I sent to Giovanni (below.) This is a good time to say, yes: he knows about this project and fully supports it.

January 14, 2011
January 14, 2011
January 14, 2011 email
January 14, 2011 email, going against my “No Nighttime Emotional Emailing” policy.
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Diary 1
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January 3rd, 1994

Diary 1 / 12-years-old / Reading, Ohio
This is my first-ever diary!  It was a present from my grandmother, and I very much remember the decision to begin writing in it every day (evidenced in the New  Years Resolutions in the December 31 post below.)  I guess this started it all…  Below are some notes found within the pages of this entry. FYI: I had been watching a VHI documentary on Madonna.

January 3, 1994
January 3, 1994

Evidence of Madonna:

January 3, 1994 notes
January 3, 1994 notes found with the entry.
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